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Thursday, August 2nd, 2007

Time:7:07 pm.
Maybe I've always surrounded myself with people because I'm scared to be alone. Today was my day off from work but Saverio didn't have off with me,so I've spent my entire day cooped up in my apartment minus the two trips to the deck to smoke so miserable and lonely trying not to cry. If I had had Saverio with me I would have been fine, we would have been out, it could have been a nice day. But instead I'm sitting here spending time in my head and I hate it. I could be sitting in silence with a friend stareing at the sky and I'd be more comfortable then I am with myself.I need friends down here, but I have no motivation to go out and make any bc i love and miss the ones I have in NY.

I'll get over it I guess
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Tuesday, May 22nd, 2007

Time:4:23 pm.



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Saturday, May 19th, 2007

Time:6:41 pm.
I'm sooo sick rught now....
nyquill during the day in hopes to get some sleep just makes me feel drunk...then cold then hot then cold then hot ....

this sucks....Ive almost lost my voice completly and i have to be at work allllll day tomorrow....

Saverio loves me and is comeing home early from work right now to take careof me...cept i think he wants to go to the hospital.....i hate the hospital...


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Wednesday, February 7th, 2007

Time:2:01 pm.
i learned something......

i can where my hair curly again woohoo
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Monday, February 5th, 2007

Time:1:46 pm.
i miss my family.

i hate that.

time for work
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Monday, January 15th, 2007

Subject:i may be fat, but i can always loose weight...you'll forever be ugly!
Time:10:34 am.
Mood: calm.
whats mine is mine and whats yours is yours

its my life. why you can't stay away from it is beyond me.

I don't poke and pry and comment and twist up yours. So why do u time and time again to mine?

whats done is done....

but i must say that red..will always look hotter on me.

its a natural thing not everyone can pull it off.

peace biches
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Tuesday, November 21st, 2006

Time:12:32 pm.
Mood: lonely.
you are so pretty


and that makes me sad
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Wednesday, October 18th, 2006

Time:11:15 am.
Mood: discontent.
I think it's being alone that is doing it to me. When i have time to just sit and let my mind race is when it all goes to shit. When it becomes nothing but New York.

i love him....i know that for sure.

I guess all you have to be is sure of one thing in life.
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Tuesday, October 10th, 2006

Subject:I want to pick a ripe red apple.
Time:12:10 pm.
Mood: envious.
this is insane

Probably the only person who will see this will be Carolyn.

and that is fine with me.

Never again do I want to go back and read my paper journals or my online one either.

Only bad feelings can come from it.

I miss the air and im gasping for it.

Its humid and sticky and hot.

i NEED the mountains.
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Monday, February 27th, 2006

Subject:"Breathe Just Breathe...."
Time:11:02 pm.
Mood: loved.
Here in town you can tell he's been down for awhile
But my God it's so beautiful when the boy smiles
Wanna hold him but maybe I'll just sing about it

i'm so lucky
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Saturday, January 14th, 2006

Time:1:04 am.
Mood: silly.
linz made me a punkin pie....more like threw me into an oven nd turned me into one....there was no stopping her.

oh well i make a good punkin pie haha.

oh tonight.♥
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Tuesday, January 10th, 2006

Time:2:24 pm.
Mood: devious.
I'm in ♥ with a vampire

things could not be better haha.

Looking up info for the best time ever.I so can't wait!
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Subject:"i bought the rights to miss you the most"
Time:2:03 am.
Mood: thirsty.
So much.
So fast.
I'm happy.
The end. ♥

Not really the end.....

Tonight consisted of lots of driving.
Yorktown to Peekskill(me caro marie)
Peekskill to Croten (me marie)
Croten to Yorktown(me kate[swaby] marie)
Yorktown to Mahopac(me kate[swaby])
Mahopac to Verplank(me kate[swaby] eliot)met mark
Verplank to Croten(see above-mark)
Croten to Mahopac(me eliot)
Mahopac to Yorktown....

I' very tired. Eliot's home from tour, it feels like he was gone forever bc I barely saw him before that which was upsetting.But he's back with no hair and better than ever haha i love it!

Everyone had something new tonight,new piercing,new hair,new phone,new swaby...it was very nice.Tomorrow will consist of lots more driveing....black cow then croten damn to take pictures with Kate Eliot and Marie,should be a good day if anyone besides Marie desides to wake up.

ps Caro your stupid for being upstate both of u come home tomorrow and chill. kthanxloveubye.

time for bed

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Tuesday, December 27th, 2005

Time:1:48 am.
You Are Pumpkin Pie

You're the perfect combo of uniqueness and quality
Those who like you are looking for something (someone!) special

I am amazing at being a punkin haha.
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Subject:only liars.....
Time:12:40 am.
Mood: cranky.
I hate myspace,I don't know why I keep it.

I've been lurking and that is never a good idea. There are just ugg way to many fakes. I found so many look a likes to someone who loves to where mac. haha. so many kids who think there tuff bc they listen to simple plan.way to much cleavage for 15 year olds. Lots of people who make me angry for no aparent reason,some just for who they are friends with....

wow i'm in an angry mood. I'm not sure why either.
It's gotta be retail.
I'm around people way too much haha
Oh joy this time of year is lovely.




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Monday, December 26th, 2005

Time:1:20 am.
Mood: discontent.
Text messeges rock!


I hate dislikeing people I don't even know.

Carolyn,you know what I'm talking about....make me stop,it's so not worth it anymore,especially not now.


Christmas was nice, except I didn't feel well through most of it,I still don't feel that great and I'm really cold. I can't wait for sun.5 more days till I don't have to worry about the cold.It should be a nice break from reality for a bit.I don't wanna go to work in the morning. I'm gunna have to deal with miserable people all day returning their xmas gifts. Oh joy, gotta love retail!

Time to attempt that whole sleep concept..

I'm so confused ♥
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Wednesday, December 14th, 2005

Time:10:58 pm.
oh livejournal....

-i hate work
-i need a new job
-i HATE the people i work with
-i wish they would go away
-im very cold
-i miss someone

+I'll find a new job
+hopefully I won't hate everyone there
+I'm going away so they won't have to.
+I'll get to see you soon.
+ ♥

I've been exhausted lately.I swear all I do is work,it wouldn't be so bad if I was at the salon everyday but I'm stuck at that god awefull mall all the time. I'm gunna leave there and hopefully soon.Someone should find me a new job,maybe one in Florida. One for me Carolyn and Bernie so we can go there and play in the sand and be happy and not be near stupid states that me and caro dont like.And then I'd be with someone who makes me smile all of the time. Just keep thinking about the 31st. It's so long till the 31st. But I can't wait for the 31st.

tired.nighty night
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Tuesday, November 22nd, 2005

Time:7:22 pm.
Mood: calm.
Clean slate...here we go....

So things have been pretty good. No real big complaints.
I left certain things in the past to fade away,with out those things even knowing and it feels pretty good.
A nice big relief to not care.
Who knows what was true and what wasn't because I never even botherd trying to figure it all out,because it just wasn't worth it anymore.
But I'm alright,and well hey thats all that matters.


tonight shuld be an adventure thanx to well Carolyn haha thanx bud.


Anyways,off to change out of my work cloths. I need a new comfy hoodie...but yeah.

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Wednesday, October 26th, 2005

Time:2:19 pm.
Havn't touched this thing in a long time,still sorta don't want to...

Things have been interesting lately to say the least.I'm finding out alot about myself,and thats a pretty good thing.

So whats new,Will's house last night with everyone.
Kara came and that made me smile.
Lots of stupid pictures were taken.
Went to Ct on Monday night,to hang out with Merritt.
Lots of JD and girlie drinks were had.
Made Merritt drink a girlie drink hehe.
More stupid but adorable and lovely pictures were taken.♥
Ct Hubbas the next day. :)
Things are more confussing than ever,but I'm ok with that.
School is no more come tomorrow.I'll be ok with it.
So thats it, work at 5,I don't want to go.Everyone should come and visit me, I'm at the mall today not the salon.

Oh Soo yeah friday ct again for the show and who knows what else.

I can't wait for Halloween!

Bye lovelys!♥
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Friday, August 19th, 2005

Time:2:46 am.
So most of my entrys are friends only now for a few reasons.
If you wanna read ask for an add. thanx ♥
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